Lots of Disjointed Thoughts

Here it is 9 days before Christmas and I'm not done shopping. Money is tight, but I don't think that is the problem. I'm just not that interested in the gift giving this year.

Hubby is on the road and nearly 1000 miles away. I absolutely hate this arrangement, but for whatever reason it seems to be this is what the Lord has planned for us right now.

Our calendar is jam packed full right now. Why is that? Who keeps adding stuff to it and where can I find them?

I still haven't told my mother that I'm not going to my sister's for Christmas Dinner, that I'm cooking at home for the first time ever for us and the boys. Okay, is that selfish of me? I have never spent Thanksgiving or Christmas at my house and cooked a holiday meal. I want to be home this year.

The idea of returning to school has been on my mind and in my thoughts for months. So, I went and applied, did the admissions interviews, took the placement test thingy and applied for financial aid. They accepted me and gave me grant money! Whoo Hooo! I've had my student ID made, been fitted for my uniforms and shoes, all that's left is orientation on Friday morning. I've been so psyched about it and now suddenly -- I'm petrified, what have I done?

There's one thing I know for sure whether the gifts get bought, the Christmas dinner plans get made or I actually make it to school -- this time right now is special because it's the celebration of my Savior's birth. If he hadn't been born in that cold, lonely stable what hope would we have. He's doing some amazing things in my life and in my heart. He's such an awesome God!

Track

It was bitterly cold here yesterday, but that didn't stop me from braving the chill and watching my baby boy run his first track meet. Watching him grow and turn into a young man is both thrilling and bittersweet. After all, he is the youngest and time is moving way too swiftly. He ran the 55 and came in 5th. It was his first heat and only supposed to warm his body for the 500. He came out strong and held the lead for 3/4 of the race. He finished 2nd. A very good showing for his first ever race.

My other baby boy is doing quite well too. He recently got a big promotion at work. I'm really proud of the man he's become.

Thank you Jesus for the opportunity to be mom to these two "boys". They truly are my greatest joy. Guide them in their decisions and help them to always put you first and foremost in their lives.