A-Hah Moments

God has a way of speaking to us at the most unpredictable times. When that happens don't you just feel special? Sometimes, we forget that God is right there sitting next to us by the computer, watching TV, eating supper, driving down the road. We forget that we can just talk up a storm and he listens to every word. He knows every thought, every choice long before we make it. He also knows our hearts the good and the bad. He knows when we hurt and put on a brave face, he knows when we are exhausted and have nothing else to give. I imagine sometimes during this difficult time with my son, that when I've buried my face in my pillow sobbing that he's lying next to me with his arms of love wrapped tightly around me and whispering softly in my ear, "all will be well my child, trust me."

Our a-hah moment came Saturday night watching a movie. Jacob had asked for some time to rent Evan Almighty. We had watched Bruce Almighty and while it has a feel good story and plot some of the scenes were just a little tasteless, so I was leary of the sequel. But, my parents had went to spend Saturday night with my sister and hubby suggested we go to the video store and we came home with the movie. First of all, it's a really good movie and the story is fabulous. When Evan is finally talking with God he asks the question we all ask -- why me? In that reply came this precious jewel -- "when people pray for patience, I don't just make them patient, I give them opportunities to be patient, and when families pray for love, I don't just make them suddenly lovey-dovey, (here it is . . . ) I give them opportunites to love each other." I can't begin to tell you how that line affected the three of us. All three of us (hubby, me and youngest son) got it at the same time and the tears began to flow. Alot of things became clear to each of us. We each realized that during this time we've not been faultless, we've made mistakes and mishandled things as well.

I can't say that everything is hunky dorie with Zachary and Candace right now, but I can say that on this end and in this home things and feelings have changed. Instead of praying God fix them, we are now praying God fix us and give us opportunities to love. That doesn't mean you give them everything they ask for, it means you love them like they've never been loved before. You love them like Jesus loves us -- wholly, completely and passionately. Hallelujah, thank you Jesus, and pass the popcorn!