A Season of Trials

As I write this post I can look out the upstairs window and see the seasons changing. Today is dark, breezy and cool. The leaves have begun to fall and it looks as though the world is shedding, transforming herself.

I too, feel my world is shedding and transforming -- into what remains to be seen. Many times here I've mentioned things that are stressing me, worrying me, things that I have no control over. For the past three years our lives have been filled with upheaval and turmoil in many different ways. Some way too painful to write about while others just needed to get out of my head and heart.

The economy has gotten the best of us and we've decided to shut down our construction business. I think hubby is burnt out on it too. Owning your own business takes a lot of time, attention, and constant stroking. Most people think you've got it made -- be your own boss, set your own schedule, and a pool of money to boot. Those of you who own your own businesses know that sentiment is just so not true. So, the process has begun and hubby is looking for employment elsewhere. He has an offer to drive for a service that would allow him some flexibility.

In the midst of the madness is Jacob. My sweet, sweet Jacob. He's feeling the anxiety of change in more ways than one. He's at that age where he's struggling between peers and parents, even with himself. All I can do is reassure him he will be provided for and more than anything that God is in control. I've realized though that even though God is in control, you still have to let go. I'm struggling with that myself.

Even though we believe in God, we believe in his forgiveness, we believe in Christ's sacrifice for us, we still have to let go.

God help me to let go, help me to turn loose of the reins that I've got wrapped in my hands and let go. Help me to trust you and not look back. Help me to take that leap of faith that says it is all in your hands.